Widowhood is not for the faint of heart. It’s a grueling battle to be appropriate, especially in business dealings, when tears are inappropriate. I’ve come a long way but still have a fair bit to go. Self-expectations of being farther along the grief journey or tougher than the tears don’t help fight the battle. So, everyday I just try to do better, be better and I leave it at that. And still carry Kleenex everywhere, just in case.
A visit to an old work stomping grounds unexpectedly brings Karen to tears. When this happens, it is what Karen calls a “grief slap”.